Love's Gone Behind

c-lines:

Quite.

abekislevitz:

Beaches. // #sand #california #santacruz #waddell #shore #ocean (Taken with instagram)

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self-mutilat0r:

Figured I might tell a bit of a story today. My story.

I’m Brittany, I’m 15 from South Australia. I’ve been suffering depression for 5 years and have had an infatuation with the idea of death my whole life. I have a depression blog. Filled with people trying to get all of their hate out. And in a way, my blog is getting my hate out too.
It’s been a week since I last cut. A week and 3 days. It’s not the longest I’ve gone, But I’m really trying. Really trying. I’ve told myself I’m not going to cut anymore. I’ve had three (or four) major suicide attempts. What 15 year is that fucked up? Well, me obviously. And probably a thousand others. Well I’m here to tell you, that you’re not fucked up. I thought I was, but I’m not. You’re not fucked up because you have self inflicted scars and a fear of living. We’ll be okay.
My last attempt, I was at school. I had showed my scars to a girl, and she tried to tell me not to do them anymore. She told me all about her past, how fucked up it was and how she had the right to cut and I didn’t. I tried to kill myself in the school toilets 20 minutes later. She still doesn’t know that.
But do you know what kept me back? My bestfriend. He’s kind and treats me like a princess. I could never conflict so much onto someone. Not like that. Not like how I would feel if he had done what I was doing. I couldn’t do it.
I bled a lot from my wrist though. The gash was deep and enabled me to stand. But I was lucky I didn’t hit a vein. My other best friend was there. She kissed my bloody arms and told me she couldn’t live without me.
I still look at my scars. Fuck, they’re so ugly. But I don’t regret them. Not one.
No one will read this. I know it.
But if you do, be kind enough to pass it on.. Be kind and prove to thousands of others, that it will get better. No regrets. I believe it will.
I’m going to stay on my medication, as well as quit cutting. No more cutting. I couldn’t leave my two best friends who love me this much, behind. I couldn’t. Could you?

liveeduzit:

GOD WAS SO GOOD TO HIM! Yes Lord! Yaaas! *catches the Holy Ghost